All the journals I have ever kept contain two blank pages at the very front. I leave the first two pages empty because when I first sit down to pen an initial entry I can never think of anything worthy, thought-provoking, or even moderately intriguing to write. And I feel the first entry in a journal (and now a blog) should be just that — fantastic! So, I leave the pages blank and pretend that I will fill them in later with something clever that will set that particular journal apart from the others.
I never do. I have only ever finished writing in a journal once, and I believe that to have been an accident. I am not good at keeping journals. I am good at scribbling things down on a piece of paper and then losing it shortly thereafter. That is all.
Since I haven’t figured out a way to skip the first two entries in this blog, I have forced myself to write something against my better judgment; however, I do find some solace in the fact that this entry (even though it is the first and deemed to be most important) will slowly be pushed farther and farther down the page until it is a mere link in an archive. In fact, this very notion encourages me to write another entry immediately after this one and then another and another. Perhaps this is why there is so much nonsense posted on blogs across the internet: everyone is trying to hide the embarrassing prose they have conjured most recently by vomiting new ideas — that are likewise uninteresting — to push down the lesser ones. I am sure to fall into that category soon.
I am calmed by the editing capabilities inherent in electronic modes of communication. In a year, or two, I might quietly slip back here and change everything and no one would be the wiser. Or maybe later tonight. Or in an hour. Or maybe I’m editing it right now; considering hitting refresh: things might be dynamically altering under your mouse.
So, in short: forgive me, but this is my first post.
What else can I say?
